My weekend was PACKED with stuff! Mostly hanging out with friends, and shopping, duh! lol. I went on a shopping binge and finally bought myself a new purse after having the old one for over 4 years, ack. Well needed. I also finally bought myself a pair of black boots with a really high heel, a pair of skinny jeans and a black sweater to match. I'm gonna wear the outfit on Monday and feel sexy hehe.
Hanging out with friends like Susie, Elly and Margie was well worth it and well needed. I miss them terribly sometimes, I get teary just thinking about it. It also seems like things are really starting to change again with friends growing up...Margie graduated beauty school and has her first "real" job, Elly is knee high in school work that I'm sure she loves doing, and Susie has her new b/f John to keep her mind occupied.
Sitting down with Margie and Elly this weekend several times the plans for the future came up. Margie is wanting to get married to her significant other and has her career in order, and I am graduating in a year and a half and already making plans for marriage, and Elly feels like she is stuck and making no progress. She is, she just has to fast forward in time a little bit and look back and see her progress.
It got me thinking about the past. And one of the reasons I still do journals to this day...I took a glance at the past at my earliest journal, dated back to November 2001, which was 8 years ago, I was 12 years old. My first page of my diary was telling myself my deepest wishes that would come true in 10 years. Well, I didn't know much, but I had to smile a bit of how close 10 years almost has past since then. And not to go too in depth, but remember back to those times it was very rough. I had mentioned several times in there how Mom and I had no money, no friends, how I felt I was ugly, and a lot of anger and boredom. (Not to mention my spelling was horrible).
It really made me think of how things have really changed, I've grown up and gained everything I never had back then. I could write books on the reasons why, but the point is success can't be measured in a day, and sometimes change can't be seen until it's happened already. Somewhere from then till now things shifted, and something inside of me especially during those bad times had to keep telling myself to keep moving forward, look forward to a brighter future.
Well, that's that folks. My future's only as bright as my past is dark. Sometimes I wish my friends would see that there is a light too, especially since they were part of my solution to happiness. <3
Who only knows where I go from here, right?